Welcome back to The Faith Journey. This Sunday series is about my faith walk, and the things the Lord is teaching me as I go. I hope you will join me on this journey and grow in your faith as well.
“Mom, can you get me some more mac and cheese?”
Getting up for what seems like the 100th time I say, “Sure.”
No sooner do I sit back down then I hear, “Mommy, May I have more water, please?”
“Yes.” I mutter through clenched teeth. Once again I am on my feet to fetch some more water.
Back in my chair, I pick up my fork. I take a bite of my dinner…cold…again. Sigh, I stand up to stick it in the microwave. As I do, I hear, “Mom, may I have another piece of chicken?” I can feel the heat in my face as I slam the plate of chicken onto the table. My husband gives me a look that says, “You need to chill out.”
Grabbing my plate out of the microwave I sit back down hard…too hard. “Mom, May I be excused?” Exasperated, I stab my food with my fork. “Go ahead,” I mumble. I haven’t even started to eat yet and the kids and my husband are all ready to leave the table.
As they all stream out of the room I think. “Maybe now I will get some peace.” But as if on cue, the baby starts to cry. She is ready to eat now too. Not even tasting my food, I shovel it down so that I can go nurse her.
Later that night, as I am complaining to my husband about the dinner situation and how tired I am. He says, “Meredith, you chose this life. You are the one that said you wanted to do the stay at home thing. No one is making you.” It is true. I gave up my place in the working world to be able to stay home. It is a choice I have never regretted, so why don’t I act like it? As I sit there contemplating this, images of me screaming at my kids, losing my temper with my husband, and gritting my teeth while cleaning all flash through my mind. My cheeks flush red with embarrassment. My attitude has been anything but pleasing to the Lord! A passage comes to mind.
“Therefore, as God’s chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience. Bear with each other and forgive one another if any of you has a grievance against someone. Forgive as the Lord forgave you. And over all these virtues put on love, which binds them all together in perfect unity. Let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, since as members of one body you were called to peace. And be thankful. Let the message of Christ dwell among you richly as you teach and admonish one another with all wisdom through psalms, hymns, and songs from the Spirit, singing to God with gratitude in your hearts. And whatever you do, whether in word or deed, do it all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through him.” - Colossians 3:12-17 (NIV)
“For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith—and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God— not by works, so that no one can boast.” – Ephesians 2:8-9(NIV)